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  • Toxic Internet

    I made a photo stack of a peculiar comment that I thought was a perfect opportunity to highlight not only situations damaging the digital common spaces, but my thoughts about it. To some it is no rarity, while to others I am someone they’ve just recently have read about, and it is easy to create misconceptions out of ideas and ideologies.

    To sum the content, a degrading comment (see photo below) on my recent upload which has had excellent performance in less than a day, myself having just starting releasing music 28 days ago, and having no special promotions, having a nice growth and support rate, keeping in mind that there are no paid or special support networks, advertising or other available to me at the moment.

    A refreshing outcome logically, on what thus far is an unbiased environment.

    For perspective of what more is shown, you can see my backstory with writing, lyrics, photography, and art further below, and on my musical journey, there are few sporadically scattered around the net, but a particular sample which brings laughter onto myself and a bit of positive pride as to seeing myself progress in spite of setbacks, is this “First Vocal Sample” from January 2022.

    There is putting the work as an artist on authentic, original content too.

    I am not new to these per say, as long ago before algorithms and AI/ commercial curation geared to larger circles benefiting most even when paid, I had similar outcomes over my then posted work, and hence the plagiarism, targeted harassment, dilution of authenticity and creativity incentives by those behind these, etc.

    On this note, here is a poem from September 12, 2016, almost a decade ago.

    Title: (link on title, Latin for “Immortal”)

    Immortālis

    A line in particular which is so very fitting here: “I rise because, I can; eternal potential is all I ever was, is all I carry inside.”

    I could never stoop so low as to become like such, as I have NEVER and will never need to. Perceptions, limited capacity of cognition by gawking sights and deductions are exactly that.

    I am rather about what I have always been – a positive mindset, with a balanced perspective which simply put, means, growing past errors and deterioration caused be by that on ignorance invited, or where the harmful attempts to grip.

    As a sole survivor of horrors beyond described/ imagined, not only is my artistry a reflection of myself in growth, but so is my person.

    Each become and convey their lives in their capacities, including of intellectual and emotional prowess. Regardless of “groupisms” and “therefores” too – be that of positives or negatives, it is a fact.

    With all that in mind, it can be difficult to navigate a toxic world when consumed by the gawking, especially when also targeted, and or a person who has faced struggles and negativity of all kinds; the harsher, the heavier the load, the more difficult the path, of course.

    Generic reasoning of “this”, or “that”, “therefore” are – generalizations, and attempts to group out of convenience and or dismissal; meaningless.

    Some ironically done in attempts to further hamper a person’s growth out of the indignant.

    The best judge of talent/ capacity is honesty.

    Without, it’s just trying to fetch validation – which even in “loving”/ “positive” environments can be very toxic.

    One’s own ability to be authentic to self, and face the ugly truth to its limitations where necessary, conquering, and rising above and beyond, are the strongest tools/ keys/ weapons – POWER no one can take from oneself EVER, that allows the mind to navigate even the most biased and detestable of environments.

    Actual growth, learning is only done when learning first to be capable of seeing reality as fact, rather than deluding oneself on what “positivity” means, and surrounding with “bubbles” of agreement, knowing better.

    Likewise, the other part, which is being able to identify wrong, and not simply deflecting responsibility.

    It is not as difficult when the first step is self honesty.

    To listen to my track: “Mighty Wings” ← click on link. You can also read the infamous comment as long as they themselves don’t delete it.

    To read my full description of the remix I made and listen to my version, “Pulchra“; this is the edit I made of the Scuro release.

    My intention with this post is besides “introducing” myself per say to my “new” audience, it’s about re-creating those foundations of what I have been known for over one and a half decades, as a digital creator, and that is of my mental transformation philosophies.

    To each their own of course, but as it is beyond obvious, not merly about “cute words”, pictures, and/ or “positive sayings”, I more than walk the talk, “I AM“.☀️

    08.26.2026 17:36

    The infamous comment can be seen below, at the bottom left of the picture.

    It seems harmless when observed from an outsider/ unaware and/ or not language adept individual, but when in the full perspective, the clear intention is of causing mental perturbation overtime, if not all at once, as it is in other scenarios.

    DON’T FORGET to check my latest work, unlike remixes, or re-releases, this is my latest creation, and further showcases the evolution of my music.

    Mythical

    It is symbolized with a Phoenix bird transformed vector art, as many know, it is one of “rising from the ashes”.

    My poem from August 2018 “Rise From The Ash” besides being thematic to the talk of things here, further shows the symbol of what ultimately is a lifetime theme for me – not something out of “luck”, beliefs/ “faith, or what have you in “beliefs”.

    Original Art post: April 1, 2018. Title: “I Came For You, Because I Love You“. PS: As it is also severely obvious, I also say what I mean, and mean what I say, in a timeline perspective. I don’t live in the past, and the therefore assumptions of what anything is like then in the future because of this, there, therefore that, could not be more meaningless to me, because it is maximized.

    While a fun, vibrant and overall a great person, alone and as a companion, that knows how and when to laugh, smile, and mean it, I am not ignorant – inclusively. I also don’t care what any self entitled mind believes I should or should not do, or assumes over what I do or don’t. I find these things extremely disrespectful, and part of the detestable feigning to be otherwise, hence the fitting strength of my thought-line here.

    Balance.

    On that note of beliefs, it is something that not matter how much it is said and the evidence there, the by choice deluded, will live and die as that.

    A fine line between harmless faith and detrimental beliefs (my sample of my track “Believe” lyrics posted back in 2024, says it all).

    AND, it most DE-FI-NI-TE-LY goes BOTH ways. The corrosive and assuming/ deflecting/ projecting does not change simply because of who and why, logically. Intentions aren’t something you hide unless they are well, to the enemy of – the targeted, and/ or the perpetrator of _____.

    My intention with this post is besides “introducing” myself per say to my “new” audience, it’s about re-creating those foundations of what I have been known for over one and a half decades, as a digital creator, and that is of my mental transformation philosophies.

    To each their own of course, but as it is beyond obvious, not merly about “cute words”, pictures, and/ or “positive sayings”, I more than walk the talk, “I AM“.☀️

    08.26.2026 17:36

  • On Answering Questions Purposely & The Answers – – About Me

    Recently I had a group conduct an interview to find out details about myself as an artist. They did not provide the official publication of the interview timeframe or platform/ magazine, so I thought to share some of it here.

    I composed the following which is a sort of a “window” into my artistic process.

    Q: “I would love to learn more about you and your creative process. To help me get a better sense of your vision, could you please share some insight on the following: Besides your music, what do you currently do for a living? How old are you? What drives your artistic style and overall creative direction? Who are the primary musical influences that have shaped your work?

    A//: I have an extensive background in business, finance and administration among other career vocational experience and education.

    I volunteer on many non-profits specifically tied to environmental/ nature and the vulnerable sectors, as well as spend a large portion of my time in creative pursuits, including arts.

    I am also a writer, digital artist, philosopher with a strong mindfulness advocacy background, photographer, and model.

    I just had my birthday (August 2nd), and in the last little while I have worked in some non profits engaged in environmental / nature monitoring, habitat – some in person volunteering as well as some consulting strategy, among other things.

    A career workshop for refining and updating my knowledge in the area, and some work with photography both in front and behind the camera. I am also teaching myself the violin, and a few other vocational related aspects.

    My artistic style is composed of my own tastes since I was a small child, along my own research and development. I enjoy creating something different, and hence why my music is composed of a blend of categories rather than the usual “niche” found around.

    I am a person that enjoys learning and advancing rather than taking from the everyday aspects; I like to look and observe from beyond the noise and commonalities that distract and create the mentality of assumptions for most.

    Natural and the less common things, along looking at things from different angles are my focus and artistic persuasions.

    I do not have primary musical influences in a sense of individuals per say, however classical, composer/ trailer music and the electronic styles of the 90s are things as mentioned, have attracted me to music.

    While not in a high professional degree, I have played multiple instruments over the years, and most commonly music tends to be an important aspect of my everyday life.

    Q: “What is your vision when it comes to being a musician, and do you have any prior live performance experience?”

    A//: I have a strong background in live and musical theater when young, some dance training – not in a professional level of course, and also in my career background in the non artistic related, public engaging and speaking have been common scenarios.

    Also, as a model I have worked many public and live performance scenarios. It is not something I am uncomfortable with, and in a good setting with proper training, something I believe I could master as a musician.

    It is hard to say specifics as to me such endeavours are something that develop and evolve with time and getting to know aspects of those I am working with, as well as plans and other like expectations play a key role. Adaptability is an absolute essential aspect of being a professional, and I most certainly are.

    Overall, my artistic vision, simply put, is about creating. Blending different aspects of my knowledge and capacities into creative inspiration and solid products that generate revenue as well as create desirability.

    A big part of that is a genuine personality and an authentic approach.

    Art is a means of both communicating with broader audiences and inspiring others; a means to help people too.

    Emotional and integral aspects of self development are shaped by what inspires an individual, and these are things I take great pride and sensitivity to, while using my own story as a source of inspiration for myself.

    As a person who has a diverse life story, and has a true compassionate background including working with vulnerable groups, it is things of these sorts that allow me to look at the world somewhat in a different than everyday perspective, and in this manner, bring my artistry and overall craft to not only attract, and create a “feel good” moment, but to drive long term positive impact through every aspect of my being.

    A unique life story, a true meaningful way of living life and being creative are perhaps some of the things that make me standout the most, and grant me the ability to be original rather than generic or have a “curated” style of approach which often comes off as a superficial narrative.

    I also enjoy greatly the outdoors and exploring in nature, where a lot of my free time is spent. Geometry and less common topics of historical aspects also play a significant role in how I shape my compositions. If curious, you can check some of my other work: Photographer/ Model Instagram and Art Domain

    Q: “Okay Adonai what is your vision when it comes to your discipline, and do you have any prior live performance experience?”

    A//: I completely understand that a well developed craft in itself is a life pursuit, and as a serious career, even more so.

    All things in life are a commitment, and take great effort, even “wasting time” or poorly investing it.

    The difference is made in both that awareness, and the dedication towards things that enrich one’s life.

    Being able to fine tune to personal needs and honest self evaluation definitely make the process far more fulfilling and aid to true “success”.

    Easier said than done of course, but again dedication and commitment do pay off when properly placed, and when maintaining oneself in constant refinement of processes and methods.

    I do comprehend fully art it is not a “vacation” but a career, and that if I am passionate about what I do, I can too enjoy it.

    The definition of joy is not per say on situations, circumstances nor on others and their personality/ selves and or actions, but my own mindset.

    As I recently had a conversation with someone and highlighted a key aspect of life: You can have circumstances and situations that logically make you sad, upset, distraught, etc., yet still choose to have inner peace, happiness, fulfilment.

    It is not a facial expression, or open for judgement of opinions, nor something to fake, but a true feeling in how one sees life ahead, and invests themselves to their abilities, capacities, situations, feelings. You are allowed to deny toxic people,environments, to even see and state situations, however to be consumed emotionally isan individual choice.

    The lack of situations that “merit” unpleasant feelings are really not the measure of.

    Hence the abundance of envy like actions and the deflections, right along the attempts to spread misery, harm, and pose as a happy, fulfilled, successful, and even advocate that it is a means of standing up, self defence, and in the more cynical a self boost – “energy acquiring”.

    Denial is a drug, and addicts simply cannot accept reality as it is acknowledgement, even when aware, as they believe others cannot see the facts; the same go on assuming on what is and isn’t of those things/ people they obsess about, ironically. It’s a cycle.

    In fewer words, facial/ social displays do not correlate to true state of being, and behaviours aren’t naturally in correlation to circumstance. One can be happy and at peace while circumstances do not favor, as there are a lot of people who smile a lot, have no reasons to, yet live in misery and project it onto others through open and hidden actions constantly while attempting to deflect the facts.

    A.☀️

    08.07.2026